catharine Hi.
Merry Christmas Eve.
It’s pouring tonight. The power was out for a while earlier so I lit candles which…actually was one of the best parts of the day. Nothing like having a storm and the power going out and needing to find a candle that will light and finding that candle. I wouldn’t call it a Victorian Christmas moment but… I mean it was cold, and storming outside. And no electricity! For…a few hours!!!! (!!!) It’s embarrassing. Felt rustic for half a second and now…I’m blogging about it. Lolll
I’m drinking hot water. I started reacting to tea, which was excessively sad, however unlikely to be permanent, so. Hot water. It’s kind of a singers’ thing in any case so I’m trying to think of it that way.
I’m really missing my kids right now, but can’t wait to see them this weekend when we’ll celebrate Christmas. My family will come over too, which I’m excited about. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
I played some carols in case you’d like to sing along. I think I skipped a verse at some point. If I had thought more about it I might have made a background other than pitch black darkness. It just happened to be dark
🎄☃️🌨️🏔️🏂🎁🎅🤶
I saw someone quote the Bible verse about the light shining in the darkness and how the darkness has not overcome it, and though I feel very distanced from the certainty of certain beliefs I once had, this thought really moved me because we so desperately need a light in the darkness. I still see Jesus as the light of the world, but it’s a painful truth in its way, kind of like when love has matured, how it kind of hurts, and might not be as simple as it once was. I find peace in trusting that we don’t have to understand a single thing perfectly, and the good news is we can’t, so. We might as well accept that we never will fully understand.
