love is really difficult to do. people say it’s hard to find. yes. exactly.
Reflecting, Etc.
thursday
Just thought I’d write about what’s on my mind today. I realized this week that the 80s were 50 years ago, and no, I’m not ok. Who decided to allow time to pass like this? I’m listening to Relient K because this is what I do I’m thinking about a bunch of people who I’ve …
list
making a list checking it twice of everyone who’s called me ai slop … not sure what I’m going to do with the list other than feel snarky about it, tbh don’t worry I still like ya’ll. a little.
relationships and the internet
Today has been pretty dang rough, tbh. Pretty dang rough. In fact, not just today. It’s been rough for a while now. Some of that is my own fault. Some of it isn’t. I’ve been thinking about what it means to know a person, and how difficult it is to do. I’ve been thinking about …
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The ending scene from War Games has been on my mind a lot lately. I feel like it applies to a lot of things. Here’s a link if you haven’t seen it: (link)
growth
I just feel the need to make a post to acknowledge a whole lot of things that I can’t write about, this is me writing a post that acknowledges- everything in my heart, my conscience. Everything I’m facing, everything I’m grieving, seeking to mend and improve on. Shame I deserve, faith I need. A vision …
friday
hi. I think I’m finally caught up to the present. sometimes I back-date stuff to when I actually wrote it. 🤦♀️ Sometimes wisdom is like a ringing bell. Sometimes wisdom is watching this video of Barack Obama giving the worst opinion I’ve ever heard on the topic of ketchup The man caught Osama Bin Laden …
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sometimes I feel like quite literally all I want to say, for the next infinite is I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry. it isn’t ever going to be enough, but by golly.
update
Hello, I thought I would provide an update. The “family emergency” I referenced ended up being something much, much worse than I anticipated or could have imagined. A few months ago, I learned that my husband is divorcing me. I’m heartbroken, and still in denial. I never thought that this was how life would go. …
cognitive dissonance
(disclaimer that I actually am deeply obsessed with this album and adore it and it was formational for me, and I listen to certain songs from it all the time. this song just made me think) I was listening to “This is Your Life” on The Beautiful Letdown and thinking about how Switchfoot was singing …
