:(

tonight I’m feeling very very discouraged. lonely. kind of on the edge of sick.

plus I started reacting to several foods I really depend on. I know it probably won’t last forever, but it’s very discouraging.

🙁

yeah.

[thinks about the sky]

the sky has a way of cheering me up, or at least existing in solidarity with not feeling cheered. it reminds me that a gazillion (or whatever) years ago there was light that is just now reaching us, and who knows what is happening now that will be reaching…. the remnants of what used to be the earth someday

and then there is joy. and pain. as there so often is

when I reflect on our future demise

[cackles perversely]

[actually goes and looks at the sky]

[sky]

[WOW IT IS BEAUTIFUL]